|Holland, Wren, and Dale. It takes us an hour or more to pack everybody up and load them all into the car. There is always at least one baby crying the entire way to our destination. Oh my gosh, I'm so in love with them it hurts!|
I've never seen a ghost or heard one before. But I will say that sometimes out of nowhere there will be a heavy static over the baby monitors and I sometimes wonder if it's Colum kissing his sisters while they sleep, or even just passing through. I'm sure there's also a scientific reason as to why the static happens out of nowhere... but I'm trying to use my imagination here. Either way, it always makes me smile. I talk to him... I'm always talking to him. I don't necessarily feel feel him. I try to, I want to feel anything. Maybe I do and it's just not as profound as I want it to be. Maybe I lack the imagination or the spiritual sensitivity. Maybe? I'm not religious, but I am a very spiritual person. It took me several years to come to the realization that there's a difference between the two, at least for me.
I know he is always with me though, if that makes sense. A chunk of my heart is floating around somewhere whether it be in ghost form, energy, a heavenly toddler, a cluster of atoms? I still miss my little boy!
Now, lets get back to the living shall we. My beautiful daughters are wonderful. They are super happy and they just give so much love. And, they ALL have beautiful thick dark eyelashes!!! I'm soooo proud!, dreams really do come true people. Holland is sick with an awful cold right now and it's heartbreaking. I'm pretty sure her eyes are going to be brown, but they look very green too. Dale and Wren are going to for sure have blue or green eyes. I've been trying to dress them all the same a lot more often. Because, it's not everyday you have a freaking set of all girl triplets.
I've never shared on here just how crazy I can get after I have babies. I was worried it was going to happen again. I don't get Post-partum depression, I get Post-partum OCD & anxiety (after both boys). After I had Colum I was by far the craziest I've ever felt. I couldn't sleep at night because I would obsess about burp cloths and messes. I couldn't leave the house because of all the messes I would come home to or the ones I would get behind on. People don't talk about Post-partum OCD, mostly just the depression. I had NO IDEA there was such a thing. I think it's a lot more common than most people think.
I'm happy to say that I didn't go mental this time! I'm doing really great. In fact I think I'm doing better mentally with triplets than I did when I just had one at a time. Way to go out with a bang huh? I'm in a really good place. I think we all are doing pretty good. Since we've moved I've been going to a different barre studio the past few weeks. It's great to have some much needed 'me' time plus Dr Phil says you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of others. I just started watching him, a few episodes now. Makes my problems seem very minimal. I think he might be a genius.
|Holland and Wren. Love the jammies they're wearing! They were gifted to us by some of you guys xoxo!|
|We celebrated Ryan's Birthday last week. Ry and I went to lunch then went back and grabbed Finn and went rock climbing.|
|my boys <3|
|His little butt in his harness just kills me!|
|pre-rock climbing photo. (I'm trying to be in some pictures with my kids, even though I don't love it)|
|Grandma Pack holding the trips! Wren, Dale, and Holland (out of order)|
|I've decided if at least one of them is looking at the camera it's a success!|
|Finn and I went to lunch and saw the movie Frozen. He thinks Elsa is definitely cuter than Anna. The boy prefers blondes.|
|And he eats sushi with jalapenos in it...even with chopsticks. Pretty sure he has no clue he's eating raw fish.|
|Holland, Wren, and Dale...I can barely handle it.|