I'm still pregnant! 34 weeks and 2 days to be exact. Although since it's after 5pm I think it's safe to round up to 34 weeks and 3 days don't you? My 'week count' goes up every Sunday if we are being technical but I like to round up...usually the Thursday before. But since we are close I will just keep it honest.
I've shared on here how absolutely terrified I am to A)have daughters...3 at the same time and B)to have 3 babies to take care of...at the same time. But about a week and a half ago at my Dr appt there was a Mom with a teeny tiny newborn baby girl. She was holding her and the teeny tiny thing was sleeping with her head resting on her Mom's shoulder.
I wanted to hold her SO BAD. I wanted my own SO BAD. My arms have been hungry ever since. And every day they grow hungrier and hungrier. I'm no longer terrified at all. I'm beyond excited. It's hard being patient. I want to see their faces and snuggle them close. They do a very quick ultrasound twice a week after my stress tests to check the fluids. Last week on Friday you could see hair on their precious little heads! I doubt they will have a lot of hair being so early but there's definitely something! I can't wait to know how much they weigh and hear them cry. I wish I could take a pill and just sleep until Sept 15 comes because the wait is killing me. I'm trying to take in the last few days of this crazy pregnancy but honestly I'm just ready to meet my girls!
Last Thursday Ryan and I were both lying in bed and I suddenly screamed. Baby A completely flipped! She was head down but she flipped to head up. She's so low and it hurt so bad, an ultrasound proved it the next day. They've all been very active lately, baby C is the most active. You can feel her little feet and legs with your hand. My belly is frequently lopsided because her head is always poking out too.
Ok, now for something serious. I haven't been able to write about this. I'm barely able to talk about it and I've only read about it because I stumbled on to something via Facebook a few months ago. I don't want to start a debate or any statistic war. This subject is hard for me, I'm forcing myself to go here just so you are informed.
I will be putting these girls in rear-facing car seats when they turn 1 and they will remain rear-facing until it's safe enough to turn them around. We were hit head on and was also told we were hit from behind as well because the people behind us probably couldn't stop in time. I thought since we were hit from behind it wouldn't have mattered which way his car seat faced. But I watched some youtube videos and I think a rear facing car seat would've saved Colum's life. The only problem is I'd never heard of rear-facing car seats, not even a whisper. I heard talk that the Pediatricians in our home town were really pushing it after our accident and I've heard that it's become more popular recently. I'm not planning on being a car seat advocate or anything and perhaps this is all old news to everyone. I probably shouldn't have watched those youtube videos because it broke my heart and I sobbed for days. Also, I think it's the parents decision and I won't pass judgement on what type of car seats people put their children in. Colum's injuries were caused by the extreme whiplash of the impact and a rear-facing seat would have prevented it.
One thing I have going for me and that I've always been grateful for is that I don't have any guilt. It wasn't my fault. We were following all the laws. The car seat thing could put a little guilt on my shoulders but I'm not going to let it. If you haven't heard of the rear-facing carseats I encourage you to do some research and talk to your Pediatrician.
update: Colum was in an infant rear-facing carseat until he was about 13 months old. We then put him in a forward facing car seat. He was 18 months old when he died. Also, I looked for the info I read on car seats and I couldn't find it.