Oooh, I just love you so so so much!
Mom, I'm gonna have to take a picture of you 'cause you are just so cute!
"Yuv" you, Mom. Mom "Yuv" you.
These are followed by about three kisses somewhere, my elbow, my cheek, my leg, my butt if I'm walking around. I've asked him to refrain from kissing my bottom but we spank each others bums a whole lot around here. We've always told him we have to squeeze his butt so much cause it's just so so cute, and so he also says "Mom, I just love your bum" a lot too. Ryan started this little tradition and the poor kid probably tells his Preschool teachers that their butts are cute at school cause he thinks it's a sign of love.
I'd walk into the boys room to see how Ryan was making them laugh so hard and he would be squeezing their butt cheeks together with one hand. This would force them to stop crawling fall onto their bellies and laugh and laugh.
You always hear how boys are hardest when they are little but you are thankful for them when they become teenagers. Girls however, are so helpful and sweet from a young age until they become teenagers and the hormones kick in.
Finn started his hard stage earlier than a lot of kids his age and I worried and cried about it a lot. Slowly I noticed that the other kids were starting to do the same naughty things that he was and I got over it. Finn, our first child has been our first learning experience as parents. He is an absolute angel right now and I never need a break from him, in fact I miss him when he is gone.
I never expected such loving, sweet behavior coming from a young boy. I went to parent teacher conference and his teacher told me that his heart is just right there on the surface all the time. He talks about Colum a lot at school and whenever it's puzzle time he runs for the Buzz Lightyear puzzle because Colum loved Toy Story. When she told me this I had to look down and concentrate on holding back the tears. You get better at doing this over time and I've found that it's best to try not to make others feel uncomfortable if you want to hear more things like this ever again. Hearing her say that meant so much to me. Hearing her say his name felt so nice. And knowing that Finn carries Colum with him wherever he goes makes me cry happy Mom tears. I'm so proud that he is mine. The boy that wears his heart on his sleeve and always participates in class.
I often wonder if Colum would've been a hard toddler or an easier one since he was a hard baby. I wonder what games my boys would play and if Colum would count the seconds until Finn got home from school. I wonder if Colum would become obsessed with Spiderman also and they'd play Avengers around the house.
Will Finn ever have another little brother and if so will they be close like he was with Colum? I know Finn has a big heart. But I also know there's a spot in his heart that will always be for his baby brother Colum. And if we are so lucky to have more babies Finn has made it clear that It's okay if they pull my hair all the time... I will let them.
|This is the last picture I took of him before the accident. We were at Aunt Bobbi's and he was modeling some Mickey Mouse Mr Potatohead glasses. He thought this was hilarious.|
|At the Pack family Christmas sleepover. He was just fine sitting on Santa's lap, he spent a while just looking straight into Santa's eyes, he was fearless I tell ya.|
|Baby Finn. He stuck his bottom lip out for a couple hours after they pulled him out.|
|Baby Colum. Wish we would've gotten a better picture.|
|Ooh, I just love him!|