And, we are getting ready for a beach getaway next week. This is our 3rd booked vacation for our 10th anniversary (back in Oct), the other 2 didn't happen... so I'm excited to finally be going somewhere and just relaxing as a family. We NEVER go anywhere, so this is so exciting for us. I've been half way packed for a week already. I'm excited to see Finn as he experiences the beach for the first time, sand in between his toes, making sandcastles, and the beauty of the ocean. I'm excited not to worry about groceries, or cleaning, or any responsibilities for awhile.
I have good days and I have bad days. I cry everyday. We watched 'Life As We Know It', it came out a few years ago, and I think we saw it when I was pregnant with Colum. It's a story that is sorta polar opposite than ours about 2 people that dislike each other but their best friends die in a car crash and they become the caretakers of their baby. They have their ups and downs but they learn to live with their new lives and make the most out of it. I enjoyed re-watching this movie again. I think that's what I'm striving for now is making the most out my life and our lives together. Although, part of my soul has been taken from me, I still want to make happy memories with my family and actually enjoy living again. I'm excited about what lies ahead and feel that I've already grown wiser and stronger from all this pain. I don't think that the things that used to get me down will even effect me anymore. There really is nothing better than a healthy, happy family.