It's 3 months ago today that we loaded up our kids into our car and turned the key to start the ignition. Every single moment leading up to the accident, every single second with him I miss. There's no reasoning, we don't ask ourselves "why", I don't think that God did it.
We are so lucky to live where there are truly so many generous people and we have such wonderful friends. A bunch of these angels worked tirelessly to throw another very successful fundraiser for us, and I got to meet a few beautiful ladies that read my blog (hi). I can't express how grateful I feel to be offered so much bountiful generosities. Women, whom we've never met crying with/for me on my shoulder, reaching out, and letting me know they have sorrow for my pain. And then while I was at the fundraiser, to have family cleaning and organizing my kitchen ever so sweetly, "just showing up, cause they know I won't ask for help", THANK YOU. His bottles were out of the cupboards and on the counter as I walked inside my house. I don't know what it is about bottles and how you get attached to them. You love them, you hate always washing them, but they make your baby so happy. The sight of those bottles are just another huge SIGN that he's gone. My baby boy is gone... and I can't get him back.
I start crying at the drop of the hat when something sparks my memory about him. When we were in Costco, Finn pointed to the Cinnamon Toast Crunch cereal and I lost it. Colum, he loved that cereal. I would put him in his highchair and put a few handfuls of it on his tray. I always knew he loved it if it never ended up on the floor. His hands would always have all that cinamon and sugar all over him along with his mouth that quickly blended with his beautiful drool. The puffy cheetos, baby sippee cups, and cheerios. The song "1,2,3,4" by Feist came on the radio and I lost it because on the DVD Best of Elmo 2, (best Elmo ever btw) they change the words and Feist just sings about counting to the number 4... I actually prefer the Elmo version, Colum would always stop and dance to that song. I miss my baby.
This is supposed to be a happy post but I'm turning it sad. I've had such an amazing day of so many doing so much. Things are going really good for us, perps in jail, and it's giveaway time! I'm giving away not 1, not 2, but 3 whole things. So 3 winners!
2 winners will win a DoTerra Introductory Kit that contains: Lavender, Lemon, and Peppermint <--- relaxing, cleansing, and revitalizing. Combine all three in a capsule for allergies. I love Peppermint on my temples and scalp when I need to focus or wake up. And put Lavender on my pillow every night. Lemon in my water...but only 1 drop because it's strong stuff.
1 winner will win DoTerra PastTense Tension Blend <---it's a roll-on that's great for headaches, amazing actually.
To enter: leave a comment on my blog about something that makes you happy. Because, we can all use a little happy, and maybe talk about it some more.
I will have Finn pick winners at random on Wednesday and announce them.