While I was in the ECU I was told they were gonna take the stent out that was still in my bladder and kidney in a couple days. The Urology team and the Infectious Disease team seemed to be at a very professional war regarding whether the stent could be harboring some infectious bacteria and causing my fevers. Much to my surprise, two southern gals from the Urology team, whom I've met before had time to take out my stent while I was still in the ECU. It wasn't pretty, and it wasn't painless. No warning, no mental preparation, they just opened my door and started setting up shop. They basically went up into my bladder with a camera, flashlight, and a claw to get that puppy out. "You did good darlin', that was a hard one", they told me after the horrific procedure. Luckily, I just love southern accents and that did help keep the 'freaking outs' at bay.
The Infectious Disease team won the battle. My fevers, they simmered down right after they took out that rotten stent, and even my night sweats were almost non-existent! I was cured. I really thought we finally figured out what the problem was. ...I was wrong, of course it's not gone, it never is silly. My fevers are slowly getting worse and my night sweats creeped right back too. I went to the Urologist today and he basically said if I go back to the hospital again we will probably take my kidney out. He also said that since I have all that other internal damage they probably will not be able to do it Laroscopically(<--butchered the spelling). They will have to re-open the huge incision on my tummy or have to cut through a ton of muscle and go through my side. Both would be about 8-12 week recovery. The whole time I was thinking he%$ no! I know you can live with only one kidney but my poor body is so beat up, I just might need that other kidney someday. I also, can't imagine one more incision on my body and laying in bed for 12 weeks.
A cousin on Ryan's side came over yesterday with DoTerra essential oils and explained to me how to use them. So I am putting all my faith into them and am going to use them consistently everyday at full throttle. I may also do some sort of kidney cleanse. I've got to do everything I can so I can keep my kidney and not be sick anymore!
While in the hospital I had a lot of time to cry. I miss every inch of him. I can stare at just one picture of him for hours, memorizing all of his perfect features and fat rolls. My sister-in-law had some footage from the Pack family Christmas party that she sent me. I watch those videos over and over and over again. I watch him walk around and stumble. I watch him watch me and follow me around with his eyes, to make sure I wasn't going very far. (Did I even notice how often he did that? probably not). I watch him fearlessly sit on Santa's lap and just stare at him. I watch him get up to dance when we are singing Jingle Bells. Colum, my little dove Mommy and Daddy miss you, we think about you every second of everyday. I'm so grateful for every picture and video I have of you, you are so beautiful and we are so lucky to have you in our family.
I just want to say thank you for all your kind comments. They mean so much to me. I'm sorry that I don't answer all the questions that get asked, I'm gonna try to be better at that. One question I've gotten is if we've gotten a car and the answer is yes, and it's my dream Subaru :).